Yeah. so i’m having one of those nights where.
A. I’m really fucking missing my ex. (even with how much anxiety he caused me/how much he hurt me but I miss him because of C)
B. I’m really fucking missing having a solid family.
C. I’m just generally missing being loved by someone, anyone.
D. I don’t know how long I can handle being in a lot of pain like this because last summer was the last time I was actually okay with my life and just… fuck. There’s really no light in my life anymore even though I really do try to do things to distract myself, make myself feel better, etc.
i’m gonna go cry myself to sleep to ben folds for the 3 millionth time now fuuuccckkkkk